Mother’s letter: 5th Child

In the quiet tapestry of my life, you were the fifth thread, woven with a brilliance and a shadow that none of the others possessed. You were not the first to carry the weight of my name, nor the last to inherit my legacy, but you, my child, were a universe unto yourself. In you, I saw the reflection of my highest triumphs and my most profound failings. You are the best of me, the unwavering resolve that built our home from the unforgiving earth. You are the worst of me, the tempestuous storm that could shatter the calmest sea. But in the intricate and often contradictory landscape of my heart, you, my fifth, are my favorite.

You are the thunder that echoes my unspoken thoughts, the powerful voice I often kept silenced. You are the glistening of tears that blur the edges of my widest smile, a poignant reminder of the bittersweet journey of life.

I am with you in the endless cycle of the seasons, a constant presence in the turning of the world. Each time the sun stands high at its zenith, casting the shortest shadows, I am there, feeling the warmth of your ambition. As the dark nights of winter recede, giving way to the promise of spring, I feel your restless spirit yearning for new beginnings. In the sweet burst of a ripe berry on your tongue, I taste the joy of discovery. With each bountiful harvest, a testament to your labor, I share in your pride. And in the quiet contemplation of a sunset gaze, as the sky bleeds into a masterpiece of crimson and gold, my spirit settles with yours.

From the moment you drew your first breath, I have bestowed upon you gifts, not of silver or gold, but of the very essence of my being.

I gave you the gift of courage, a blazing fire in your soul, so that in your strength, I could feel my own resolve rekindled. I watched you stand firm against the howling winds of adversity, a lone sentinel against the storm, and in your defiance, I found my own fears quelled.

I gave you the gift of love, a deep and endless wellspring, so that in the warmth of your affections, my own heart could find solace. I have seen the gentleness in your hands as you mended a broken wing, and the fierce loyalty with which you defend your kin. In your boundless compassion, I feel the purest form of love.

I gave you the gift of desire, a burning ember of ambition, so that in your passions, I could feel the vibrant pulse of life itself. Your relentless pursuit of knowledge, your insatiable curiosity about the world, has reignited the dormant embers of my own youthful dreams.

I gave you the gift of wisdom, not from ancient scrolls, but from the whispers of the wind and the lessons of the earth, so that in your understanding, I could continue to be a student of life. You learned to read the stories in the stars and to understand the language of the flowing river, and in your insights, I found a connection to the world around me.

I gave you the gift of temperance, the quiet strength of a steady hand, so that in your balance, I could find my own center. You learned when to let your passions rage and when to seek the tranquility of stillness, a harmony that has often eluded my own restless heart.

I gave you the gift of endurance, the unyielding spirit of the ancient mountains, so that in your resilience, I could feel unbreakable. Life has etched its lines upon you, as it has upon me, but it has not broken you. With every challenge you overcome, my own spirit feels fortified.

And finally, my child, my fifth and my favorite, I gave you the gift of life, a sacred flame passed from my soul to yours. In your laughter, in your sorrows, in your very breath, I feel a sense of permanence, a connection that transcends the boundaries of time.

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